Tuesday, March 12, 2013

A note to my 39-year old self

A note to my 39-year-old self:
I want to take a moment and ask you to just stop.
Stop rushing through your life, your kids' lives. Stop and just look around.

Today, you are sitting at a table, watching your 3-year-old play.
She never stops.
She climbs, jumps, sings, skips. All day long.
"Mommy, guess what?" "Mommy, watch this!" "Mommy, please play with me."
"Mommy, I love you."

Look at her eyes. Deep, deep brown and full of life.
Listen to her questions and answer them. Give her your full undivided attention.
Stop counting the days until she is in kindergarten and out of the house.
You need to cherish all you have with her at this moment.

Stop and just look around.

Take a moment and smile when you think of your 7-year-old.
Talk about amazing energy, that little boy keeps you moving from sun up to sun down.
He wants you to play.
Video games, soccer, wrestling. He wants it all.
Do you think he will always want this?
Time flies, remember that.

Soon you won't be cool enough to take him to school. Soon he will want his space.
"Stay out of my room!" will be the one thing he asks of you.
Today, he asked you for a hug and kiss before he ran out the door to head to school.
Did you cherish that moment, self?

Stop and just look around.

You are blessed with two young women who still enjoy spending time with you.
Girls' Days Out are a treat for all of you. Have you scheduled one lately?
Have you just visited with them lately, in their room at night as they are getting ready for bed?

"How are you?" "How was your day today?" "Is there anything you need from me?"
Remember that you are blessed and that every night before they go to sleep, they give you a hug or kiss goodnight.

Every night.
This may change over time. Soon enough, they too will want more space. More "personal" time. Less "Mommy and me" time. Are you ready for that? Are you ready for them to go to sleep without an "I love you, mom!"

39-year-old self, you sometimes move too fast. Sometimes you try to fit too many things into your day. Sometimes you work too much. You stay on the phone too long. The words, "just a sec" come out of your mouth too often. Next time you are tempted to say them, remember, those kids need you now. They want you to pay attention.

And in the blink of an eye, time will pass and they will be gone.
So stop, watch, enjoy them. Enjoy your life. Enjoy your kids.
They make you smile. Every single day.


mom said...

Truer words were never spoken - oh enjoy them - the memories last forever

mom said...

Truer words were never spoken- enjoy this time- the memories last forever:)

Tracey's bookshelf: read

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
The Girl Who Played with Fire
The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest
My Sister's Keeper
Nineteen Minutes
The Pact
The Tenth Circle
Change of Heart
Keeping Faith
Handle with Care
House Rules
More Than It Hurts You
Amy and Isabelle
A Prayer for Owen Meany
A Widow for One Year
The 158-Pound Marriage
To the Lighthouse
Between the Acts
A Room of One's Own, and Three Guineas
The Help

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